“Let’s not get tired of doing good, because in time we’ll have a harvest if we don’t give up.” - Galatians 6:9 Common English Bible (CEB)
For over a decade, I have set aside a few hours at the beginning of the week to sit down at my computer and copy/paste announcements, download/upload photos of our children's ministries, and hope and pray for divine inspiration to share a word of encouragement, inspiration, or challenge for parents in our Glenn Church community. Some of you will remember the old days of my Microsoft Outlook BCC list before MailChimp came along and even with improved newsletter platforms, there have been technical difficulties of font size, date errors, and the like. I am grateful for each of you who actually open the e-mail most weeks when I know all too well the reality of overflowing inboxes and information overload.
Longtime subscribers may have noticed the trend for me to use song lyrics or quotes from other authors when I'm not feeling particularly insightful. I enjoy the easy expression of a few haikus or a Top Ten list. Usually I only encounter a writing slump or writer's block for a week or so. Thanks to Google search, I can easily share from the "Kids @ Glenn" archives and it's been fun to look back at my own parenting journey. I have been honored to host guest writers and amplify the voices of those that inspire me through the years.
Enter the COVID19 pandemic and each time I finally sit down and open my computer on my dining room table with either the sounds of arguing or giggling children distracting me, all I seem to find as I stare at the screen is confusing chaos that the uncertainty, fear, frustration, worry, guilt, and exhaustion of living through a pandemic brings in unique ways to each of our lives. It feels offensive to give a word of encouragement. A reminder to myself or to you to find joy in the moment and give thanks for the family time quarantining brings to many of us seems grossly dripping with privilege. Talking more about anti-racism resources runs the risk of performative allyship or too little too late. Moving on from focusing on anti-racism seems like yet another offense of white privilege to compartmentalize systemic injustice. Local Mom boards are full of debates of virtual school, in-person school, hybrid models, and the inequality of each option - that for some parents, teachers, and especially children are not viable choices at all. It feels as though every.single.choice we make - from ordering take-out to going to the beach to screentime for the kids to childcare options to what kind of mask we wear is loaded with layers of politics, privilege, and parenting-guilt.
And here I am again staring at the computer with no profound thoughts on how to frame all of this nor how to wrap it up with a proverbial pretty bow. So like so many of us - whether you are a frontline worker for your job or you are in the trenches of parenting 24/7 with no end in sight, I am going to remind myself and you to just.keep.going. Whatever ways you are continuing in or just joining anti-racism work - just.keep.going. For hard relationships that need lots of boundaries - just.keep.going. For the day in/day out parenting of tiny ones to teenagers who need our full attention to help shape their experiences of this wild time in history that is changing all of our lives - just.keep.going.
For our spiritual lives and faith journeys that feel so different than ever before as we no longer have the tradition of showing up to a worship service each week with the solidarity of support from a church family of all ages & stages of life but instead have pivoted to virtual and different expressions of church life - just.keep.going.
It's okay to not be okay. It's okay if this is a wonderful reset of your life from the grinding and brutal packed schedules many of us lived pre-COVID. If you have joys and thanksgivings to celebrate - please reach out - as we'd love to celebrate together! If you're lonely, overwhelmed, or paralyzed with guilt or fear - please reach out, as we'd be honored to listen, pray, or curse together.
It's amazing to look back and see the ups & downs of my own life and ministry - and yours - chronicled through 12 years of Kids @ Glenn e-mails. Starting "lucky" year 13 takes the cake on the most unique yet; and even if COVID culture has created a longterm writer's block for me, I commit to being here each week for love, prayers, and community even when words fail me.
Grace and Peace,
Susan
